3:10 to Yuma

i AM NOT MAD ABOUT ANYTHING, MAYBE A LITTLE BIT? i REALLY DON'T KNOW BUT i REALLY DON'T CARE. YESTERDAY, MY ASSISTANT MANAGER MORE OR LESS TOLD ME THAT i DON'T TALK TO ENOUGH CUSTOMERS AT WORK AND SOME OTHER STUFF THAT i REALLY DIDN'T PAY ATTENTION TO BECAUSE IN THE MOMENT i WAS VERY LIVID AND IRATE. NEVERTHELESS, i PERSISTED.

(GOD'S PLAN BY DRAKE PLAYS IN THE BACKGROUND)

I guess moral of the story is don't work a retail job when you like to keep to yourself and not really befriend your coworkers? Or maybe know where everything is supposed to go in the store? To my very, very lazy defense when I close I really am eager to leave and often rush to get things done. I know I am not alone, dear God I hope I am not alone on this one...

The weirdest part about this nonsense, which often is my job, is that I've never had a complaint from a customer about me, my manager told  me exactly 8 days ago that I did a great job, a customer said to me, verbatim, "Wow, you're, like, the first person that actually cares about the customers at this place. Thanks.". So, here are what my thoughts on the bullsh*t are:

1. The owner of the store is out to get me. I saw her at a bar for a split second this past weekend and quickly made my escape from her vision.

2. My manager might think this is an incentive for me to out-pace some of my other coworkers, to work harder (it's hard to work hard from clock in to clock out when all you do is put clothes on racks and post to Instagram 400 times a day), or some other odd reason.

3. This is some social study on the effect of negative reinforcement on employee behavior.

4. My coworkers are upset that I don't talk to them that much and keep laflare's thoughts, comments, concerns, and other personal things to myself. Personally I don't care what my coworkers think of me (LOL)

Honestly, all of the theories listed above are probably wrong, but it's still interesting to think about.

ANYWAY,

Today has been one of the few days where no signs of low self-esteem have appeared. Serotonin is very nice to your body, I suggest we all get some!

Last, but not least, New York is going to stop arresting so many people for smoking weed in public as long as the interaction between the officer and the POI isn't fueled by the officer's presumption that the POI is a threat to the public, the POI doesn't have any pending charges, has their ID on them, and all that good stuff. And Canada just legalized Mary Jane.

Cool, right?